Today is September 26 2017, I cant believe how long it has been since I last added anything to this site. November 19th 2016 was the last entry. Almost a full year.
I have started a few times, but I have many reasons for not doing it:
1) Time,
I’d start to write somethings down and would run out of time before I was done.
2) Ideas,
I have learned a little more about websites an I want to change the theme/look before I go any further. But that will take some time.
3) Review
I want to read what I have already written before I add more, to see where I was compared to now… I have started a few times, but as you may have guessed, I run out of time before I get through it.
Time:
My biggest adversary seems to be Time. I just finished the book, Abundance Unleashed by Christian Mickelsen. There is nothing new to me in this book, but he did present some things a little different. I appreciate that because it helps me retain the information.
One thing I did get out of reading this book, that is helping me, is that I have such a poor relationship with time. I mean I’ve known that I had a problem with time, and have known it for a long time. But I am starting to get a grasp on why. I took the tests in the book on my abundance levels in wealth, health, love, and time.
I was surprised that my lowest score was in time. Looking back it should not have been a surprise, but it was. Wealth was my next lowest. I expected wealth to be my lowest. I know that I will never be wealthy until I fix my limiting beliefs on wealth. And that is where my thoughts have been mostly focused this last year, believing that I am worthy of being wealthy.
The book has helped me realize my time is more valuable than money. More importantly, fixing my limiting beliefs about time is more important to me.
Reading the book is helping me look at the why. I’ve kind of known but I don’t ever look at it. Self evaluation is not easy for me. It’s easy to see my weaknesses but difficult to see my strengths. I like what he says “We don’t even realize there’re strengths, because we just think that if it is easy for us, it’s probably easy for most people”.
This next paragraph is hard to start. I’ve stoped to visit with Debbe, then I got something to eat, then a snack, then something to drink. Then reread what I’ve written, made changes, did that again, a few times… I just need to say it. I realize that my always having to be busy is how I keep from feeling, from being aware of emotions. “I don’t have time for that” is a quote from one of the other books I read recently. I’ve know this for a while, yet I still struggle with it. Some how realizing that I struggle with time more than money has helped me see a little more clear.
Some of the key points, for me, that I got out of reading this book at this time in my life are.
- There are always gifts in the hard parts of our lives – if we look for them. Most people (me) can’t see the gifts because they are too caught up in the story of how they were wronged. The single most helpful thing I have done this last year is having an attitude of being grateful. He talked about being grateful in this book.
- He talked about being like water vs being like taffy or a rock. “The best way to move from rock to taffy to water is to Surender your attachment to a specific outcome. Stop being so ridged in the way you think things are, the way you think things need to be…”. He talks about just being present, something my daughter has been telling me for years but is difficult for me to get.
- Another great point he talks about is strengthening your strengths. Get better at the things your good at.
- Know what you want. How can you get there if you don’t know where you want to go?
- You have to start as a beginner, and you have to start.
- I like how he talks about making time to be board. Just sit and be board.
I also struggle with keeping up with habits I want to create. I want to exercise every day, read, study, meditate, pray, write, eat healthy, do breathing exercises, stretch, just sit and think, every day. But I don’t seem to be able to stick with it. The only thing that I have had some success with is just sitting, meditating for a few minutes every morning, and then reading for a few minutes.
I feel like I never have enough time, but I can wast hours just sitting in front of the TV.
I have read and listened to several books this last year, each one giving me more insight. This is where I am today, still struggling yes, but confident that I will work through this and be the man, have the life I dream of, the life I deserve.
It is now 4:00 PM I started this before 1:00 PM, I don’t feel like I done but I have a meeting tonight that I need to get ready for, so I’ll stop for now. I set a goal to post on this website today and I’m going to get that done.
My intention is to start posting every week again.